Daily Devotional – 8/4/16 “Carnal minded!”

It’s the eighth month of the year. August = 8 and I’ve told you that biblically eight means resurrection and regeneration. Resurrection means to bring back to life and regeneration means renewal or rebirth. So eight literally means, biblically, a new beginning. Yet, someone is still stagnant in the same place you were seven months ago. In fact for some, you’ve been in the same place for years. And you want to blame God. You sit and try to figure out why God won’t blessed you like He does someone else. Still questioning why God did what He did. Still trying to figure out why it seems like you’re always having it hard. Or why when you call God He doesn’t answer. Well beloved, I don’t mean to be the bearer of bad news but I don’t know any other way to say this … God is answering but if you don’t know His voice, you’ll miss it. How will you know His voice? Well, you’ll first have to be one of His sheep. The bible says in John 8:47, “Whoever belongs to God hears what God says. The reason you do not hear is that you do not belong to God.”

Choose a side

Yes, I know you’ve been baptized and you go to church occasionally but you cannot be in the world and belong to God too. I mean, you can but that’s what the bible calls, carnal minded. Carnal means you hear God’s word but you don’t do anything with it. Carnal means you go to church on Sunday but you still club hopping through the week. Carnal means you love God but you won’t let your flesh go. Carnal means you look saved but have no sustenance. Carnal means you preach but there’s no power. And this is why the bible says in 2 Timothy 3:5, “Having the appearance of godliness, but denying its power. Avoid such people.” This is why things aren’t working out for you. Chile, you don’t even know whose you are. Bless your heart. You can’t expect God’s blessing when you’re still living an unsaved life. You can’t expect God to uphold you in your mess. You’ve got to make it up in your mind that you are a child of God and then live it. This doesn’t mean you stop enjoying life it simply means you enjoy life as a child of God. Yes, God has plans for your life however, if you choose to rewrite them, you can’t be mad at God when they don’t work out.

 

Daily Devotional – 8/3/16, “How’s your lip service?”

As long as you have your mouth (voice), you have the ability to cast out demons, destroy the enemy’s plans and deliver and set God’s people (and yourself) free from bondage. As long as your voice can be heard, you have the ability to send the enemy on his way. As long as you open up your mouth, you have the capability of sending praises up to God. As long as you use praise with your mouth, the Holy Spirit will inhabit your praise. See, praise isn’t clapping your hands but it’s opening your mouth. Yes, shouting is good but a praise offering to God by way of your mouth is even better. The bible says in Hebrews 13:15, “Through Jesus, therefore, let us continually offer to God a sacrifice of praise–the fruit of lips that openly profess his name.” Beloved, every chance we get we ought to offer up lip service to God, thanking Him for all the things He’s done, what He’s doing and then thanking Him in advance for what He’s about to do. We ought to say like Psalm 119:108, “Accept, LORD, the willing praise of my mouth, and teach me your laws.”

We have to get to a point in our natural lives that praise shall continually be on our lips. Because when praise is on our lips, nothing bad shall be able to get in. See, when our mouth is filled with praise, we don’t have room to eat gossip. When our mouth is filled with the goodness of God, we don’t have the time to speak ill over anybody else. This is why you have to be careful what you put in your mouth because then it can taint what comes out. It’s like eating garlic or onions. If you don’t clean your mouth before you speak, the next words that come out will be overshadowed with the smell of garlic/onion. It’s the same with speaking bad. If you don’t clean your mouth, the bad can overshadow the good and then your lip service won’t be any good to God nor your body. This is why it says in Proverbs 10:31, “The mouth of the godly person gives wise advice, but the tongue that deceives will be cut off,” or Psalm 37:30, “The mouths of the righteous utter wisdom, and their tongues speak what is just.” As children of God, we’ve got to be mindful of the lip service we give to God and to His people because it can either destroy or deliver. This is why we have to get to a place where we say like Psalm 49:3, “My mouth will speak words of wisdom; the meditation of my heart will give you understanding.” So I’ll ask you the question, “How’s your lip service?

Lip service

Daily Devotional – 8/2/16 “Just wish me well!”

Just because you can’t understand my anointing, just wish me well. Although you may not be able to explain my blessings, just wish me well. Yes, she was healed from the disease doctors said there’s no cure for, wish her well. Yea, he got the job they said he wasn’t qualified for, wish him well. Yes, they got approved for the loan the other bank turned them down for, wish them well. Yes, I overcame being slandered, wish me well. Beloved, there’s going to be times when things will happen to you, for the good, that natural eyes and minds can’t explain and because they can’t, folk will bash you instead of accepting it. That’s ok! Don’t try to explain it, instead ask them, “Why can’t you just wish me well?”

Look, when you’ve overcame your past that was jacked up, stop listening to folk who say you don’t deserve what you’re reaping now. When God has given you grace although you used to live as a disgrace, quit being ashamed of the purpose you’re now walking in. When you’ve been delivered and set free, stop going into hiding every time someone slanders your name. Baby, when folk show up to cause hell, ask them, “Why can’t you just wish me well?” When folk try to ruin your reputation because you opened your business and they haven’t, ask them, “Why can’t you just wish me well?” Today, when someone is ‘hating’ on you, ask them, “Why can’t you just wish me well?” Stop fighting folk with words and in the physical when all you need to do is walk in the anointing. Yes, there will be people waiting on you to fail, there are folks camped around you who wish you’d hurry up and die but baby, live and live gloriously in the love of God! And when they come for you, send back the message, “Why can’t you just wish me well,” and be done with it.

Wish me well

Daily Devotional – 8/1/16 “New beginning!”

A new month, August that is. Eight, biblical meaning = resurrection and regeneration or like some say new beginning. With this being the case, today is the day you no longer entertain the enemy. Tell him you’re taking your life back, your stuff back and he has to get the hell on. Today, resurrect the dead places that have started to rot within your spiritual walk. Today, regenerate the fire of God that has went out within you. Today, start afresh leaving the past behind. Today is the today you begin again. It doesn’t matter what you’ve been called, the things of your past neither the many times you’ve fallen, all that matters now is your willingness to get up and start new. Are you willing? 8+1+16 = 25 which, biblically means, grace upon grace. This literally means that not only is today the day you begin new, it’s also the day you receive a double portion of God’s grace. And you know what God says about His grace, don’t you? He says in 2 Corinthians 12:9, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” The bible says in Ephesians 2:8, “For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith–and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God.” It says in 1 Corinthians 15:10, “But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace to me was not without effect. No, I worked harder than all of them–yet not I, but the grace of God that was with me.”

I don’t know what you’re dealing with my brother, my sister but today you’ve been given another chance. I don’t know what you faced on yesterday but today you’ve been awarded another opportunity. I don’t know what ‘they’ said you couldn’t do, all I know is today is your chance for a new beginning. You simply have to take it. Stop doing what you used to do, it hasn’t worked. Stop going where you used to go, it won’t help. Stop depending on the stuff, it’s messing you up. “Rather, you must grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. All glory to him, both now and forever! Amen.” – 2 Peter 3:18

Trust God

Two Chapter Peek of Ms. Nice Nasty: Cam’s Confession

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18 years ago

“Thank you Mr. Frederick, this is just what I need.”

“Is there any else, Camille?”

“What do you mean?” I ask looking confused while grabbing my things.

“Oh come on, you know what I mean. You didn’t come here tonight for help with this assignment because you could have easily figured it out yourself.”

“Um, I’m not following.”

“Sure you are,” he says, smiling.

“Okay, but I’m not sure what you mean. You’ve always helped me before but if it’s a problem, I won’t come to you again.”

“No, no, there’s no problem but you’re not a freshman anymore so now I need some help from you.”

“Oookay,” I say, still confused.

He takes my books and sits them on the floor before taking my hand and placing it between his legs.

I snatch it back. “What in the hell are you doing?”

“Calm down, haven’t you felt a dick before?”

“No, and I don’t appreciate you putting my hand on yours.”

“You’re a virgin?” he asks, smiling.

“I’m going to go because obviously I’ve given you the wrong idea.”

He grabs my arm and pushes me back down on the couch. “You aren’t going anywhere.”

He gets up and locks the door.

“Look Mr. Frederick, I apologize if I gave you the wrong idea but if you let me out of here now, I promise I will not say anything.”

He starts laughing. “You aren’t going anywhere, little girl, and you won’t say anything either, not if you want to finish this program.”

“Excuse me?”

“You heard me. I have the power to make or break you at this school.”

“I’ll take my chances,” I say, trying to grab my books again.

He gets angry and pulls me up to him. “Oh, you’re a feisty little bitch. I like that, but I suggest you shut the fuck up and listen.”

“Please don’t do this.”

“You don’t know when to shut up, do you? Get on your knees.”

Crying, I kneel in front of him as he unbuckles his pants. Shoving his dick in my face, I squirm trying to avoid it but it’s only making him more aroused. Using it to slap me on my lips, he smiles. “Open your mouth.”

Refusing, he grabs my hair and pushes his dick into my mouth, “Suck it!”

I gag from the musty odor of him but he continues to thrust in and out until I almost throw up. Pulling me up by my hair, he licks me on the lips and says, “You’ll get better with practice.”

Turning me around on his desk and snatching my panties from under my dress, he spreads my legs with one of his. He pushes me down as he rubs a finger over my clit.

“I’ve been waiting to sample this pussy,” he tells me, slapping me on the ass. “Relax and you might enjoy it.”

Crying and begging him to stop only makes him more aggressive as he keeps one hand on my back, forcibly holding me down. He’s fumbling around with I’m guessing a condom when I take note of a paperweight sitting on the edge of the desk.

He finally thrusts into me and I cry out.

“Ah,” he moans as he pounds into me. “This is some good, pure pussy.”

He continues, every thrust getting harder and harder with his hand now on the back of my neck.

“Ah, ah!” he grunts before finally pulling out of me.

I lay there a few seconds giving him a minute to back up. Picking up the paperweight from the desk, I swing it towards his head, connecting the first time.

“Dammit!” he yells, stumbling back. “You crazy bitch!”

He walks towards me and I keep swinging.

Chapter 2

“Camille, Camille! You’re safe.”

“What?”

“You’re safe,” says Dr. Melody Scott, my sex therapist, drawing me out of my nightmare.

“I’m sorry.”

“What are you apologizing for? For finally letting down your wall?” she asks, handing me a tissue. I didn’t realize tears were rolling down my face.

“I’ve never told anybody that.”

“Why not?”

“Because I didn’t want them looking at me with the same look you’re giving me now, that look of pity. Poor Camille, got herself raped—”

“Camille, stop it! I am not looking at you with pity.”

“Of course you are. Isn’t that what you doctors do? Sit up and judge folk because you never do any wrong? Is this not what you were expecting? This, or me having daddy issues?”

“We as doctors don’t judge: we are here to help and no, this isn’t what I was expecting. All I was ever expecting from you is the truth of your problem. And just so you know, I make mistakes too because I’m human.”

“Humph! You could have fooled me, Ms. Sex Therapist Doctor. Sitting here with your hair all nice and neat, fancy suit and shoes, looking like you’ve never sinned.”

“Don’t you look the same way every time you come in here? The only difference is that I don’t run from my problems.”

“Who said I’m running from mine?”

“I am. Have you not realized we’ve been at this for almost two years and this is the first time you’ve ever let me in? Why is that?”

“Because then I have to face the person I was sixteen years ago.”

“But aren’t you tired of running? Aren’t you tired of hiding behind the disguise of Cam?”

“It’s who I am. She’s the one who got me through that.”

“But what are you afraid of now?”

“Of losing her.”

“What makes you think losing her is a bad thing?”

“Because this is all I know. Cam is who I am!”

“And how’s that working for you?”

“It was working great. I was enjoying it quite well until everybody started dipping their nose in my business.”

“Why do you always blame everybody else?”

“Listen Doc, I don’t want to argue today. We’ve made some good progress.”

“Stop taking everything as a joke, Camille.”

“I’m not!” I say, getting angry. “And I am not blaming everyone else. Like I’ve told you before, I don’t have a problem with who I am. I love the shoes I’m walking in.”

“Even if they cause you to lose everything you’ve worked so hard for?”

“Who said they would?”

“Be real for a minute, Camille. Look at everything you’re going through now. Can you honestly say it’s worth it?”

“Well no, but—”

“There is no ‘but’ when it comes to your life. Don’t you get that? You have an opportunity to get it right, at this very moment, yet you’re choosing ‘Cam’ over everything else. Is she worth losing your family, your friends, your career and quite possibly your life?”

I can’t answer.

Get your copy FREE by clicking HERE. Please understand, Cam’s Confession is only a short story, an add in to the full series. It’s not meant to be a full novel, only a special edition.

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