Book Excerpt – Shattered 2

Shattered 2

Chapter 4 Excerpt (Therapy Session with Dr. Scott)

“Yeah, well, Cam is the only person who has been consistent.”

“Consistent in what, exactly?”

“Everything,” I state. “Without her, I don’t think I would have survived.”

“Girl, Cam isn’t a resolution to your problem, she’s residue and I don’t mean the kind that reminds you of something good. Cam is a constant reminder of what you’re hiding from and as long as she’s here, she’ll taint everything you touch.”

“You say that like it’s easy to forget. I know Cam isn’t good for me but what am I supposed to do? Was I supposed to pray to God when He was the one who allowed that man to hurt me?”

“Camille, God didn’t allow that, evil did.”

“Yeah well, evil or not it happened, and you act like it’s easy to forget that.”

“I never said forgetting but at some point, you’ve got to come out from behind this wall you’ve built and that starts by an inward cleaning.”

“How?”

“Come with me,” Dr. Scott tells me.

I follow her down the hall to a bathroom. When she opens the door, my mouth drops and my hand flies up to cover my nose.

“You didn’t expect to see this, did you?”

I shake my head no.

“Did you assume this bathroom would be clean?”

“Of course,” I reply.

“Why?”

“Because the house is.”

“Oh, so since this house with its pristine outside is clean, you never would have suspected it to have something so filthy inside, right?”

“To be honest, no. I assumed—”

“You assumed?” she chuckles. “People assume that because we’re fixed up on the outside, from the image we portray that inwardly it’s the same. However, most of us walk around daily, just as filthy as this bathroom because it’s easy to hide, if we close the door. Go on in.”

I hesitate.

“What’s the problem?” she questions.

“It stinks in there and it’s full of trash.” I say.

“So,” she shrugs, “your insides stink too. The only difference between you and this bathroom is that it’s filled with trash while you’re filled with shattered pieces of you.”

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Shattered: Cam vs. Camille

Camille has spent the last 18 years fighting herself. A tragic event changed who she was and from that point forward it became Cam vs. Camille.

Cam is the woman who gets what she wants, doesn’t think she’s hurting anybody, put together, no nonsense and unapologetic. If she hurts you, you’ll apologize before her. She is who she is.

VS.

Camille is the attorney, the one who can rock 5 inch heels, the business suits, friends and family can count on, handling everything thrown her way but when the lights are off; she’s shattered and bleeding.

Camille’s journey in Shattered is one of brokenness, pain, low self esteem, anger, bitterness and everything else. The shattered remnants of her life are so entangled in her soul, that no matter how much she tries to release them, they are hard to let go.

Until she meets Dr. Melody Scott who ain’t taking excuses. She’ll get you together and then pray for you. She invites Camille to join her at a place she calls The Sobriety House, for the Hagar Experience. A weekend of detoxing and dealing with the things that caused you to run. Dr. Scott tells her, in order to begin the healing, she’ll have to GO BACK to the place that broke her.

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Part 1 – https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07YCRJMNG

Part 2 – https://www.amazon.com/dp/B082311Z3D/

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The humiliation and guilt of so many bad decisions; created more dark days and nights of tears and shattered conditions.

The shattered remnants of Camille’s life are so entangled in her soul, that no matter how much she tries to release them, they are hard to let go.

After experiencing tragedy, pain and loss; she decided it was time to get the help she desperately needs. She began to take prayer and therapy seriously and fight for her marriage, all to help her succeed.

And things started to get better.

She received the nomination for judge, her family and friends are good, she’s smiling … Until she comes face to face with the one who’s trying to sabotage her career and it’s the last person she expected. Devastated and hurt, she does what has always worked for her, to hide her pain and run.

In the finale of this Shattered series, Camille has to pick up the pieces of her life, again. This time it’s proving to be harder because she’ll have to give up things, fight against what hurts, admit she hard truths and say goodbye; all while realizing, she has more tears to cry.

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The humiliation and guilt of so many bad decisions; created more dark days and nights of tears and shattered conditions.

The shattered remnants of Camille’s life are so entangled in her soul, that no matter how much she tries to release them, they are hard to let go.

After experiencing tragedy, pain and loss; she decided it was time to get the help she desperately needs. She began to take prayer and therapy seriously and fight for her marriage, all to help her succeed.

And things started to get better.

She received the nomination for judge, her family and friends are good, she’s smiling … Until she comes face to face with the one who’s trying to sabotage her career and it’s the last person she expected. Devastated and hurt, she does what has always worked for her, to hide her pain and run.

In the finale of this Shattered series, Camille has to pick up the pieces of her life, again. This time it’s proving to be harder because she’ll have to give up things, fight against what hurts, admit she hard truths and say goodbye; all while realizing, she has more tears to cry.

Get caught up with part 1 before part 2 releases, 11/28/19

Part 1 — Available HERE

#BookExcerpt – 2:32 AM: Losing Faith in God

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Get it here –>2:32 AM: Losing Faith in God

Charlotte’s Therapy Session

“How have you been since our last meeting?”

“In all honesty Dr. Mitchell, I don’t know how I am. One minute I think I am doing good and the next I’m crying uncontrollably.”

“That is to be expected Charlotte. You suffered a major loss.”

“But when does it get better?”

“I wish I had the answer. In your moments of crying, what are you feeling?”

“Sometimes I feel like I want to close my eyes and never open them again.”

“As in suicide?”

I nod.

“When was the last time you had thoughts of harming yourself?”

“Last night or early this morning, the times are all running together.”

“What stopped you?”

“I’m afraid to die. Even though this pain is sometimes unbearable, I am still afraid of death.”

“Why is that?”

“I don’t know, maybe it is fear of the unknown.”

“Do you believe God has a plan for our lives?” She asks.

“I do.”

“What do you believe your purpose is?”

“I haven’t figured it out yet. Since losing our baby, I feel empty.”

“Tell me about Micaela.”

I sigh, trying to stop the tears that want to leap from my soul.
“She, um, she was born January fourth at 7:42pm. She was stubborn, like me, deciding she was coming on her own time.” I laugh. “She had dimples, the softest hair and the sweetest smell.”

“Do you have pictures of her?”

“I do but I haven’t looked at them since she died.”

“Why not?”

“It’s too hard.”

Neither of us say anything so I break the silence.

“This morning, I was on the internet and I searched for the name of mothers who have lost children.”

“What did you find?”

“A lot of blogs on how to grieve and deal with the loss but nothing gives us a name.”

“Do you think you need one?”

“Of course. We should be called shells.”

“Why shells?”

“Because a definition of shell is an outer form without substance.”

“Why do you feel you have no substance? You’re alive with breath in your body, a heart and soul and in your right mind.”

“Yea but what is my purpose? What kind of substance do I have? I had a baby but she died so I’m no longer a mother.”

“What about being a wife?”

“A wife. Humph. Funny you should ask …

Get it here –>2:32 AM: Losing Faith in God

The bible tells you how to fight the enemy but what do you do when it feels like it is God you’re up against?

Charlotte’s nightmare began at 2:32AM, the morning she experienced the most unimaginable pain ever, the loss of a child.

Now, she finds herself angry at God. She trusted Him and He took her only child. She prayed to Him and it seems as if He has turned His back on her. And if things could not get worse, hell keeps showing up at her door.

What can she do, when she continually cries in the darkness but gets no answer? Where can she turn when it feels like her back is against the wall and there is no way out? Who can she depend on if God let her down?

Questions Charlotte ponder when the memories snatch her from her sleep at 2:32AM. Questions that make her angry because to her, God has forsaken them.

2:32 AM: Losing Faith in God
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