Have you ever rolled to the very end of the bed, only to catch yourself from falling? Ever got close enough then suddenly woke up right on time? What about waking up, to find yourself wrapped in a sheet and one move from being on the floor? Or moving your arm, only to realize you are one turn from hitting the nightstand? Have you? I have and it made me think about all the times we’ve been at the edge, of this thang called life, knowing we should have fallen but suddenly, something happened. Or those times we’ve come to the end of all we can do mentally, knowing if we move slightly, it’ll be all over. Looking out at the edge, breathing heavy and heart pounding knowing, I should have fallen over but I didn’t. Anybody else besides me experienced an “I almost fell” moment? Thinking, had it not been for God stopping me, I should have been dead. Had it not been for the sheet of salvation keeping me, I could be out my mind, right now. Had it not been for the sudden opening of my eyes, I would have found myself in another jacked up situation, crying over another catastrophic circumstance, weeping over the woes of this world and fighting in a fixed fight I have no chance of winning.
But something happened … your eyes were opened to realize, I’m just at the edge and got another chance to step back. I’m just at the edge and I’m still safe. I’m just at the edge and can roll back over. I’m just at the edge and I can get up. Because being at the edge doesn’t mean I’m out, it’s just mean I almost. I almost what? I almost gave up, I almost gave in, I almost jumped, I almost died, I almost committed suicide, I almost counted myself out and I almost let go. BUT I DIDN’T! I don’t care what it looks like, step back. I don’t care what it feels like, roll over. I don’t care what they said, what does God say? Open your eyes beloved, you are just at the edge. Open your eyes sister/brother, it’s just the edge. And being at the edge means there is still a chance. It’s not over until God says it is! It’s just the edge!
Lakisha, the Author 