I, sometimes, find it eerily ironic to look back on devotionals written around the same time last year and they are exactly what is needed now. And although I find it creepy, I believe it is because God already knows what we will need and when. I am, right now, sitting at my desk at work trying not to get frustrated about this project that I am currently working on that is expecting more of me than I am willing or capable to give. Then as I begin to communicate with God on what I should share, to encourage somebody else; I was lead to the devotional I did last year. This devotional simply says, we are all on an assignment. It says, well let me copy part of what it said. 
Last year’s devotional said … “When God has placed us on assignment, it is our duty to finish it. Yes, it may be hard and we go through moments of not understanding but we have to finish because it’s the only way we’ll get promoted. See, you have to understand this; God will never place us in an assignment He didn’t write the coursework for nor one He didn’t fully test. Neither will God ever place us in an assignment He hasn’t mapped out the action plan for leaving. This is why you have to trust Him going into the assignment, in the assignment and coming out of the assignment. And regardless of how we feel about it, it is not up for discussion because we can’t barter with God. We either go now or we go later. But understand, going later comes with a whole lot of stuff you might not necessarily like.”
Wow! I wrote this last year but it just, literally, shook me spiritually right now. (I am talking to self but you can eavesdrop (listen in), if you want.) You cannot get frustrated now, you got work to do. You cannot give up now, you’ve come too far. You got a responsibility to stay where you are, don’t move. Yes, it is hard. Yes, it hurts. Yes, it does not make sense. Yes, you want to throw in the towel. Yes, you have had enough but if it was over, God would move you. Girl (Dude), sit down and wait on God. Don’t risk moving before you’ve completed the lease because you might not be able to pay the cost associated with breaking the agreement.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.” – Proverbs 3:5
What if the doctor told you tomorrow was your last day alive, would you regret the way you’ve lived? What if you had a chance to open up the door to yesterday, would you do it? What if you could turn back the hands of time, would you? I ask these questions to prick something within you because you need to get it through that thick skull of yours this one thing that is for sure … time does not stand still. Keep walking around withholding the apology you know you should give. Keep on with the attitude of they won’t talk to me, I won’t talk to them. Keep ignoring the texts and the calls. Keep saying you’ll go tomorrow. Keep saying you’ll forgive eventually. Oh and that “they are dead to me,” will be true one day and it will rock you to your core. Because you are aware the dead can’t accept your apology right? You do understand that crying over the casket means nothing, don’t you? You do realize that you can’t forgive a tombstone, right? Then stop holding grudges, they’ll cause you to lose access to grace. Stop harboring hate before it becomes a habit you can’t break.
For Martha, she was busy trying to serve Jesus that she didn’t have time to listen to Him. Her sister, Mary, on the other hand, was sitting at the feet of Jesus listening to everything He had to say. Yes, here Jesus is in their home and He was probably hungry and thirsty but He didn’t come to be served, He came so that He might serve them. Martha missed it. So now she is upset and she says to Jesus, in
We accrue thousands in student loans to move up the career ladder, only to go home stressed out because the work you’re doing isn’t doing anything for your worth. You know God is calling you out from the usual but fear has you stagnant. Please understand, God’s call for your life does NOT have to mean ministry because we all have a destiny that God has designed. How do you know what it is? It is the very thing that keeps you up at night. It is that thing you can speak passionately about and the thing you can debate for hours on end. It is the thing your search engine is full of. It is the thing you keep writing and praying about. And it is quite possibly, the very thing that caused you some dark days and pain. 