You are dying. Yep! You are suffering the effects of this disease and no matter what you do, you cannot get well. You have been to the doctor and even they cannot figure it out. You have tried over-the-counter medicines and they won’t work. Tried yoga and it cannot fix it. Googled home remedies and even they cannot repair what is ailing you. Well, I am glad you came to Dr. Kisha at Devotional Medical where I can already tell what you are suffering from. No ma’am, no sir; I don’t need to draw your blood, I don’t need a urine sample, no MRI or CAT scan is required; the signs are evident. You are dying from an undiagnosed disease called ILTDI or “I Let Them Do It.” A disease that comes from being worked up over a man or woman who will not or if I can be honest, cannot commit to you yet you’re hanging on. Being mad at God because your checking account is being drafted by check advance companies (or other debtors) yet you’re looking for ways to get more. It comes from your home being in turmoil because you will not sit down and have a grown up conversation, you’d rather yell and argue. From your children running you over and the sad part, you keep giving them the keys. Beefing on social media with folk who have no bearing on your life yet you’re giving them access. And being spiritually stunted because you don’t want to give up your seniority in the church that has been dead.
You are dying beloved and I know you feel it and have seen the signs. How long will you ignore them? You do realize when the life support machine is hooked up to you, you won’t have a say; right? You do understand that you may not make it, this time, when the shock is delivered to your heart; right? You do get that you may not have anyone around you who can perform CPR in time, right? Then what are you waiting on? The cure is right there. Look right there, you see it? It’s right there! In arms reach. It’s the door, it’s the phone, it’s the social media connections and it’s your mouth. Because sometimes beloved you just have to pronounced that thing dead, shake the dust from your feet and move on. Sometimes, you just have to call it what it is and be okay with it. Sometimes, you just have to call ‘them’ who they are and be alright with telling them bye. If you don’t, you run the risk of prematurely dying. The bible says in Proverbs 12:25, “Anxiety in a man’s heart weighs him down, but a good word makes him glad.” Here is a good ole Baptist word for you, QUIT! Quit allowing yourself to die when it isn’t your time!
Lakisha, the Author 