Dear Jane (Junk, Afflictions, Neglect, Emptiness)
I saw you standing outside my job but it won’t work, we have nothing to talk about. Yea, I saw you outside my house last night but I won’t break; not this time. Your smooth charm won’t get me like it used too. You’ve had me fooled for so long but it stops, now! I don’t need your junk, it’s weighing me down. I no longer accept your afflictions; they’re making me look bad. Your neglect, keep it; it didn’t do me any good anyway. Oh, the emptiness I took from you, it’s being filled now, so leave! The closest you’ll ever be able to get to me, from now on, is this closed door.
Stop blowing up my phone with the ‘I miss you’ texts because I definitely don’t miss you. No, we can’t hang and talk; I’m talked out. No, I won’t meet you to eat, I can feed myself. You’ve had me hostage for way too long and today, I’m taking back my freedom. Yes, you were the one hurting me but the saddest part of it all, I allowed it. Yes, you were the one who made me think I couldn’t be anything but I’ve realized now, I can’t be anything with you. You even had me thinking that God no longer wanted me, but I found out that was a lie too. So, you see; you are no longer welcomed in my heart, my house, my car or my life. Not anymore! And stop visiting my family, I’ve told them all about you and you’re not welcomed there either.
I allowed you to control me, I allowed you to belittle me, I even gave you the joy I did have but you know what; I’m taking back everything you took and I’m getting everything I’m due, just not from you. I’m sorry, no I’m not; you deserve everything that happens to you and I know just the man who will do it. It’s my new roommate, God, and He’s handling my affairs from now on. Oh, and just so you know; I’m telling everybody about you.
“So you have not received a spirit that makes you fearful slaves. Instead, you received God’s Spirit when he adopted you as his own children. Now we call him, “Abba, Father.”” Romans 8:15