Hello December!

We’re in a new month and somebody is already cringing, wishing for 2025 to be over with already.

Maybe it’s because the year hasn’t panned out as you planned. Shoot, who am I kidding? We don’t even have to talk about the past 11 months because last month was enough on its own. I mean, it whooped yo tail.

You endured a loss. You experienced a death and the grief is still heavy. Plans didn’t work out. Business didn’t do as well as expected. You didn’t meet your goal. You fell off the wagon, under the cart, and were almost run over. You slipped into depression. You slid into sin. Your anxiety flared. You didn’t fast as you promised. May have even gone back on some promises. Church membership and tithes are down. Stuff probably happened that could fill an entire sheet of paper.

But here’s the good news.

YOU HAVE ANOTHER CHANCE!

With tears, pain, mistakes, missteps, mess-ups, and everything else. YOU HAVE ANOTHER CHANCE! And you still have a God who’s looking out for you.

However, the question is now being asked. (Choose how and when to answer.)

What you gonna do with it playa? 👀

Thanksgiving + Grief

Yes, it’s Thanksgiving but somebody is already full from the heaviness and tears of grief. You’re sitting alone or maybe you’re surrounded by family, yet you still feel as though you’re by yourself.

Grief is tugging hard on your heart and you’re trying. You’ve put on a brave face to cook. You smile and nod when someone says something. You sing along with the songs. You even have your outfit laid out for the living room when all you really want to do is crawl back into bed.

I feel you. Grief does that because it’s sneaky, it’s crippling, it’s confusing and it hurts. But here’s what I know. You can live with it. Yes, as hard as it is to go on with a void in your life, you can. In fact, you’ve been doing it. Every day you get up with a broken heart, but you’re doing it. You raise your head from a tear-stained pillow, shower with tears falling, then you get dressed with the deep breaths that calm you, but you’re doing it. Because grief isn’t something you get over. Grief is what you go through.

So, stop feeling guilty for enjoying the moment. Just because you laugh, and live, it doesn’t mean you aren’t grieving. It means you’re alive. I also believe that your loved one would want you to carry on. Use their memory to do just that. You can cry today, and every day beloved, but get up. You owe it to them to carry on.

And know that I’m praying for you.

Be Ye Healed!

Some of you are fighting CPTSD and you don’t even recognize the signs. What’s CPTSD? Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Understand. I’m no expert. In fact, I learned about and researched this while writing #AlmostDestroyed. But what I’ve learned is, we can experience CPTSD from trauma, past relationships, our childhood, witnessing abuse, infidelity, religious hurt, disease, financial trauma, abandonment, bullying, infidelity, harassment, homelessness, and the list goes on.

And when you suffer with CPTSD, it causes you to have difficulty controlling your emotions, intense anger, sustaining relationships, believing you are enough, feelings of shame, guilt, or worthlessness, nightmares and/or flashbacks. You know what else? You’ll feel connected to your trauma and will have a hard time coming out of agreement with it. Why do you think you continue to crave a relationship with the person who keeps hurting you? It’s because there’s something going on, in your mind, that makes you loyal to things that are not loyal to you.

Baby, you may have CPTSD. This is why when something happens, you won’t even recognize that you’ve been triggered until afterwards. At that point, you’ve probably done things you wouldn’t normally do. Like hurt yourself or others. You’ll find yourself floating, face down, in sin and it’s not until you’ve come back to yourself that you now regret what you’ve done. All from being triggered by unresolved hurt, and unhealed trauma that you don’t even know is CPTSD.

This thinking, “hurt them before they hurt me,” or “let me get my lick back,” are both side effects of CPTSD. A side effect you’ll never get rid of if you don’t, A. Admit you need help, B. Get help to figure out your triggers, and C. Receive the help to manage and control when you’re triggered.

Beloved, you don’t have to continue to live like this. Stop being ashamed of your struggle because there is help available, but you must make yourself available for it.

I’m looking forward to meeting the healed YOU. 💚

Declare this over your life …

I REFUSE TO ALLOW MY PAST, WHAT THEY DID & SAID, WHAT I’VE LOST, HOW THEY LABELED ME, WHAT I’VE DONE AND ENDURED TO ROB ME OF WHAT GOD HAS FOR ME!!

Today, I am reclaiming my power, my voice, my place, and my God-given identity, so that I no longer walk in shame, but leap with the faith, joy, and assurance that I am who I am because of whose I am.

Therefore, allow me to reintroduce myself.

Hello, I am God’s chosen. It’s nice to meet you.

You got this, girl!

Eleven years ago, I preached my first sermon. “Called, not cursed.” Today, I’m still standing on this declaration because (and I can be honest) ministry is hard, tedious, doesn’t always pay well, takes sacrifice, time, sleep and sometimes gives people the audacity to try you.

However, even with all of these things, I’d still say yes to God. In fact, I wish I hadn’t waited so long to answer Him. But I realized, had I said yes before I did, I would’ve messed up what God had planned for me. Therefore, I’m grateful to be in this, my place, and God’s purpose doing what He’s anointed me to do.

Therrfore, if you dont mind, let me encourage myself. Happy Preach-a-versary Pastor Kisha. Keep going because God’s plan for you is God’s plan for YOU! And every seed, tear, groan, prayer, dollar, fast, minute and cry is and will be worth it.

You got this, girl!