What is this that got me feeling … I don’t know! I can’t put my finger on and I can’t explain it. Have you ever been there? It feels like … My spiritual minded folk will understand because I cannot put it into words! All I know is this, there is something about to happen, something that I have been wrestling with in the spiritual realm that is about to shift some things. My daughter text me yesterday and said she had a dream that I was pregnant and I replied and told her this means I am about to give birth to something and I didn’t realize it then but she was simply confirming it. See, God is about to do something and although I don’t know what it is, all I have to do is PUSH! (HA!) Pray Until Shift Happens! Y’all don’t even understand the magnitude of my feelings right now. When I think about the things that are happening in my spiritual life, I can’t put them into words! When I think about where I could be and where I should be, if it were left up to folk, I rejoice in knowing that it isn’t left up to folk because I have a God who blesses in spite of me.
Baby, I don’t mean to make this thang personal but every now and then you have to remind yourself that you could have been the one outdoors had it not been for God keeping your mind from going crazy. Yea, every now and then you have to make it personal to remind yourself that it could be you on the corner begging for food when you lost your job and couldn’t find another one. Every now and then you have to remind yourself that it could be you sitting at the West Clinic getting chemo or at the Dialysis clinic. Every now and then you have to remind yourself that it could be you sitting beside the bed of your baby girl or boy who has an inoperable brain tumor and today could be the final day they take their last breath. Every now and then you have to remind yourself that it could be you burying your spouse or identifying another one of your sons or daughters. Every now and then you have to remind yourself that it could be you making another visit to the jail or accepting another collect call. Every now and then you need to remind yourself that it could be you. Oh, if it had not been for the Lord keeping me. Oh, if it had not been for the Lord keeping you. Oh, if it had not been for the Lord keeping us; where would we be? Every now and then we need to be reminded that it could be worse because it could.
Lakisha, the Author 