I prayed, “God, forgive me…”

Lately, I’ve felt tired. Not in the fatigue kind of way, but in the “is this worth it anymore,” kind of way. Then it hit me, early this morning. I’m tired because I’ve stopped enjoying the blessings of my gifts.

Here’s why. I began looking at the tangible instead of trusting the plans and purpose God has for me.

Let me be truthful and I’m only speaking for myself, but it can become discouraging, most of the time, to pour your all into anything and not see an ROI (return on the investment). This is for anything. Writing, ministry, living, giving, or whatever. However, this is especially true for writing. You may not realize this, but African American Christian Fiction isn’t a genre that is paid its worth and I started questioning whether it was worth it anymore.

IT VERY MUCH IS!

So, this morning I decided that I’m going to get back to enjoying the journey. I mean, wholeheartedly enjoy it. And while in prayer, this morning, I asked God for forgiveness. “Forgive me, God for forfeiting the joy of the journey.”

Because I love all that God allows me to do. Therefore, I’m going to continue to do what He has called me to do with joy while allowing Him to handle everything else.

I don’t know who else is feeling this way about whatever it is but don’t give up. Instead, trust your gifts and enjoy the journey. Do your part because the rest is God’s business.