Yea, I’m still in my feelings today so I’m going to continue on in my thankful series…Now, I may be saying I and me but this here is for you too because we all have to get in our feelings sometimes to see exactly what it is God is trying to get us to see. We have to sometime stand in front of the mirror to look at ourselves to see that although it feels like you’re going through hell, you’re still alive. So, yea I’ve got to continue on.
Why? Glad you asked, because I’m blessed like that. See, when I don’t see a way in my dark situation, God works this thang right on out. When I think I won’t have a dollar to my name, I get an unexpected check in the mail. When I think that nothing is going right, God shows me that my blessing was in me going left. Yea, when I know I shouldn’t have gotten that promotion on my job, I did anyway. When I know I should have been dead from cancer, high blood pressure, kidney disease, heart problems, lupus, sickle cell, brain tumors, aneurisms, stroke, heart attacks and even at the hands of folks who mean me harm, I survive! When I shouldn’t have the energy to get up, I do. When I shouldn’t have the strength to go on, I do. When I shouldn’t have a regulated mind to know right from wrong, I do. When I shouldn’t have a mouth to repent with, I do. When I shouldn’t have a heart to love with, I do. When I shouldn’t have unwavering trust for folks who’ve hurt me in the past, I do. When I shouldn’t have hope for the future because I can’t see it clearly, I do. When I should want to give up, I can’t! When I should want to give in, I don’t. When I should want to throw in the towel, it never happens! Oh, when I think about all the hell I go through, I rejoice knowing that Heaven is my final destination and this is simply a stop along the way. Oh, when I think about all the times I’ve fallen, I know that it’s just a temporary stumbling situation to strengthen me. Oh, when I think about all the nights I’ve cried myself to sleep; I realized that it’s just a current circumstance that’ll change! Oh, when I have a momentary memory loss and I start to doubt, I see that it’s just a minor detour to my destiny! Oh, when I have to pace the floor at night dealing with my problems, I know that it’s just the position that God has placed me in to get my purpose! When it seems like the storm will never end, the dark clouds will never roll away and the rain never stops; I see God working by washing away all the stuff that has separated me from His salvation and tried to defeat me in my fight. Oh, I thank you Lord because when I feel like I’m nothing, You tell me that I’m necessary! When I feel undeserving of my gift, God, you enlarge my territory, which lets me know that I am. When I feel like I’ve always been last, God, you turn everything around and make me first. And when it seems like my race is almost over and I won’t reach the finish line, God, you simply reach back and take the baton and keep running in my place and that’s what I’m still thankful for!
Lakisha, the Author 