New Book – I’m Not Crazy

Imagine waking up one day different. You can’t explain it, but something just isn’t right. One minute you’re happy and the next sad. One moment you’re loving and the next angry. The voices you hear, the different moods you experience and the sad looks in people’s eyes makes you wonder if you’re losing your mind.

For Savannah Graft, she’s been dealt some heavy blows in her lifetime, but has managed to overcome them. Now, happily married to her husband, Pastor Shane Graft, mother to Kennedi and Baby Shane, First Lady of Victory Temple and the owner of SG Graphics; life is good.

Until one morning, she woke up different. She isn’t herself, yet she can’t see it. She recognizes something is wrong, but she can’t explain it. All she knows and continually says, I’m not crazy. Truthfully, she isn’t she’s depressed.

In this book, we begin a conversation to peel back the layers of postpartum depression, in the home and in the church. Although this is a work of fiction, every day somebody is dealing with the effects of mental illness and depression. In the church they tell you to pray and fast more. In the world, people say you’ll be okay, but how do they know.

Read Savannah’s story to see if she finally admits to needing help or will she continually hide from fear of herself, judgment or ridicule.

I’m Not Crazy is now available for download on Amazon Kindle and Kindle Unlimited. Paperback version will be available soon.

Dear Sister,

What we ain’t about to do is continue pouring the gifts, God has given us, into fruitless relationships. We are not about to continually spread the untrue news that all men are bad. Hold on, some of the men may have been raggedy, but not all. Here’s the truth, and this may sting a little but I need you to get this … IT MAY BE YOU!

See, God has created you with strength that can stretch you pass your limits, favor that can withstand fights that should have defeated you and glory that shifts you from ordinary to extraordinary. You just have to know this about yourself. You are the bomb, damnit, yet you don’t trust your opinion of you.

Want to know why? I’ll tell you, even if you don’t. You haven’t taken the time to get to know you. You jump from relationship to relationship without grieving and healing from the one that ended. You lay in beds, creating soul ties with folk and you don’t break them. You continually diminish the power you possess in your head, heart and between your thighs.

Here’s what you do, HEAL YOU!

Have a funeral for everything you’ve lost, grieve it and heal. And while you’re on your healing journey:

• embrace YOU
• spend time with YOU
• love YOU
• get to know YOU
• believe in YOU

If not, you run the risk of raising little examples of broken you and that’s not fair to them.

My sister, it’s time you healed. You’re too old to be in the shape you’re in. You have children that shouldn’t have to keep watching momma arguing, fighting and crying over somebody God didnt create for you. You’re too beautiful to keep lowering your standards. And you’re too gifted to be treated like trash.

What we will do, from this point on, learn our worth and demand it!

Signed,
A sister who wants to see who whole! 💚

PS — The #SurvivingMe journal is available for you.

Free Book

2:32 AM

For the next 2 days, you can download 2:32 AM for FREE on Kindle.

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Synopsis:

What do you do when you’ve lost your baby and your faith at 2:32 AM?

The bible tells you how to fight the enemy but what do you do when it feels like it is God you’re up against?

Charlotte’s nightmare began at 2:32AM, the morning she experienced the most unimaginable pain ever, the loss of a child.

Now, she finds herself angry at God. She trusted Him and He took her only child. She prayed to Him and it seems as if He has turned His back on her. And if things could not get worse, hell keeps showing up at her door.

What can she do, when she continually cries in the darkness but gets no answer? Where can she turn when it feels like her back is against the wall and there is no way out? Who can she depend on if God let her down?

Questions Charlotte ponder when the memories snatch her from her sleep at 2:32AM. Questions that make her angry because to her, God has forsaken them.

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Happy Reading 💚

New Book Alert

Last call signifies closing time is near, either you place your last order or settle any open tabs. In life, it’s when you’re fed up and a decision must be made … Should I Stay, or Should I Go?

For Lillian Weaver, last call could be a possible end to her seven-year marriage to Blair.

Blair, the owner of a popular bar, B Squared has allowed success to go to his head. Now, his pride and ego are bigger than the promises and plans he once made with his wife. A wife, who no longer recognizes the man Blair has become. He used to be loving and kind, someone she was willing to sacrifice her own dreams for.

Until one day, he changed. His demeaning language and disrespectful actions leaves Lillie confused, hurt and tired. Will Blair’s pride cause Lillie to walk away and him lose it all? You’ll have to find out in this Christian Fiction novella, Last Call.

Available Now — HERE


Excerpt

“Baby, it’s been too long since I’ve danced,” I tell her.

“Me too but hey, it’s great cardio.”

“Let’s get out of here because I’m starving.”

“We can always hit up CK’s like we used to do in college.”

“Yes,” I sing. “I haven’t been there in forever.”

Thirty minutes later, Hazel and I are enjoying our food.

“So, what are you going to do now that you’re divorced and on your own?” she asks me.

“I’m going back to work at the West Clinic. It’s only part time but I’m excited.”

“Really? Why? I know you don’t need the money.”

“I know but I’ve been helping Perry—”

“Wait,” she interrupts. “Perry is the moving company guy whose wife was your patient before?”

I nod. “Her name is Gillian and she’s going through chemo for the second time in 18 months. I’ve been over to their house a few times helping her after the treatments and I miss it. Not the nastiness of it but the part about caring for the patients.”

“You’ve always been great at that. I remember when your grandmother was sick, you took very good care of her.”

“I know, and God knows I miss them. If my grandpa was still living, I probably would have moved back to Mississippi and reopened the diner.”

“Not that dingy ass diner Blair is always bad mouthing?” she laughs.

“Child forget him. That diner saved his tail, plenty of times after his mom ran off with the money he’d saved for college. Anyway, with BJ turning a year old soon, I think it’s time I do something for me.”

“Well, I think it’s a great idea and I’ll help with BJ.”

“Hazel, thank you.” She is trying to swallow her coffee to stop me from saying it. “No, listen. I never got to thank you for that night at the apartment. I had a feeling Blair was lying but, I was mad and hurt. It seemed like everything was hitting me at once. Man, it felt like my heart was in a vice grip,” I say patting my chest. “Yet, you stayed. Not only that, you prayed and held me into the early morning. Thank you for being there because I needed you.”

Her eyes fill with tears as she grabs my hand.

“Lillie, you’re my best friend. If I can’t be there for you while you’re hurting or willing to petition God, while you’re in the middle of a storm, what good is our friendship? God knows, you’ve been there for me. When I wanted to end my life, you were there,” she shakes her head and wipes the falling tears. “I’m just grateful evil didn’t tear us apart because you know I’d never do anything like that to you, right?”

“I know,” I blow out a breath to calm my emotions and use the napkin to wipe my face. “Okay, enough of this mushy stuff. Tell me what’s been going on with you. We’ve only been talking about me the last six months and I need a change.”

Last Call available now — GET IT HERE

New Book Alert – Covet

Covet – yearn to possess or have (something) or to wish for earnestly

Karis (pronounced Car-ris) and Darius Toney has been married for seven years. Their marriage isn’t perfect, but they’ve made it work. They’re active members of True Vine MB Church, she’s a photographer and he owns a tire shop. Things are, well, they are good.

Until the day, their life becomes the object of somebody’s obsession. The only downside, they don’t know who it is. This person, in the darkness has a yearning, a desire to possess something Karis and Darius has … they just didn’t know it yet.

Pray and fast, that’ll help when you’re going through a storm, right? Well, they’re doing that, but things are getting worst. Fire, turmoil, secrets and a kidnapping of a spouse. It’s clear, the person responsible hasn’t read Romans 13:9, “For the commandments say, “You must not commit adultery. You must not murder. You must not steal. You must not covet…”

Covet, now available in Ebook and Paperback


Excerpt

Karis

At the studio, finishing up some work when my phone dings with a text. Before I can open it, a call comes through. I press answer and put it on speaker.

“This is Karis.”

“Karis, have you been on Facebook?” Victoria, from church ask as the line buzzes with another call.

“No, why? What’s going on?”

“Girl, you need to see what was posted thirty minutes ago to the church’s Facebook page.”

“Vic, girl what is it?”

She pauses.

“Hello,” I say.

“It’s an article about Darius. It says he murdered his first wife.”

I laugh. “That has to be a mistake because Darius hasn’t been married before.”

“I’m only telling you what was posted. You need to go look.”

She hangs up and another call comes through. I decline it, turning my phone face down. Typing in Facebook, on the computer, I go to True Vine’s Facebook page.
My mouth goes dry as I begin to read the post.

“The bible says in First Timothy three, verses eight through ten, these words. “In the same way, deacons must be well respected and have integrity. They must not be heavy drinkers or dishonest with money. They must be committed to the mystery of the faith now revealed and must live with a clear conscience. Before they are appointed as deacons, let them be closely examined. If they pass the test, then let them serve as deacons.”

I guess True Vine MB Church didn’t read this when they ordained Darius Toney.”

I click on the attachment. It’s an old news story from 2004.

“A family seeks answers as they mourn the loss of their loved one who died on an Army Base in Ansbach, Germany. While the investigation has been closed, in Germany, ruled a suicide; family members say there’s more to the story. Their daughter, Kathrine Toney, married Darius Toney, not even three months ago. They trusted him with her only for her to be shipped home in a casket.”

I slam my computer shut. My phone dings again, this time with a text. I open the app and see a new message in the Unknown Senders tab.

+1 (217) 984-9099: Attachment: 2 images

I click it. I turn my phone to the side and enlarge. Another text comes through.

+1 (217) 984-9099: See someone you know? I guess we all have secrets, huh?

ME: Who is this?

+1 (217) 984-9099: You’ll know soon enough. Oh, he tasted very good. Thank you for keeping him hydrated.

I dial the number, but a message says it’s disconnected.


Covet, now available in Ebook and Paperback