I tried to write this on yesterday but God would not release it until today. A day whose date deemed worthy of displaying on my right wrist. See, it was four years + one day ago, on 8/28/2014, I stopped running from God’s call on my life but it would be the day after that my life begin to align with God’s will. I have shared this testimony before but I could not let this day pass without giving somebody hope for today. No, I am not about to sell you a fairy tale because I need you to sow into me. I am not about to convince you that saying yes to God will erase all your troubles. What I will share is how ME saying yes, restored what I did not even realize was broken. I spoke yes and it stitched me when I could not see I was bleeding. I stood in the bathroom stall at work, crying and apologizing to God for all the time I had wasted while giving Him my yes. I knew I was tired but still trying to fight. Weighed down and wounded yet still trying to act like all was good. I was at the edge. Then I said yes. Has it always been good? No because I am attacked more today. Has it always been easy? No because there are days, I do not feel like being holy. Has it always been fair? No, but it has been all God. It was four years + one day ago, everything shifted in my life for the better. What does this mean today? Truth is, I do not know. Bible shares, it was on the fourth day God divided day and night. There are four seasons and four synoptic gospels. Four signifies stability, order and completion. While I wish I could say what this fourth year will bring, I cannot but I will say, I am still trusting God with my yes. Why? Because He has not failed me yet. Although I have seen some deaths, experienced some sickness and some losses; I still trust God with my yes. Why? Because these last four years have nothing on the times, I was playing with God.
See, the times before the yes, I had religion but no relationship with God. The times before the yes, I had become good at wearing my mask. The times before the yes, we were barely surviving but I dare not show you my struggle. Oh but four years + one day later! Four, my marked sacred time, my year of completeness after God has worked out all the residue of my past hurts, scar tissue, unhealed wounds and unsaid words of forgiveness. Four, the year God thrusts me into the fullness of His anointing and I do not even know what it means yet I trust Him. Four, when God separates me from the darkness. Four years + one day marks the year I stopped playing and started, for real, praying. Four years + one day signifies the year I walked into the light of God’s word and for real started trusting Him. Some of you have read my testimony but it was four years + one day ago that we packed up our apartment and moved without a destination because God said it. It was four years + one day ago that we struck out on faith without knowing where we were stepping. I trusted God with my yes then and I trust Him with my yes now. What about you? Sure, you could have already given God your yes and it still feels like the enemy has made your house, his home. You could be in your 14th year and still dealing with temptations, being overlooked, overworked and underpaid. This could be your 24th year and the worst of them all, I do not know but trust God. Because I hear God saying, “But I have prayed for you, that your faith may not fail; and you, when once you have turned again, strengthen your brothers. Luke 22:32.” It has been four years + one day for me and I am still saying yes, what about you?